Words.

A long while ago I used to make it a point to blog every now and then, forcing him to blog too. Sometimes he would, and at times, well, he's just too tired. But that's okay,I know how hard he's been working so I let the matter drop. Plus, it wasn't as if I had plenty of time to write too.

Now, whenever he does write, it comes as a pleasant surprise. Hmm, maybe he does that on purpose. Hehe. Cheeky.

I went to the library a few days ago and 2 books managed to catch my eye. In particular, a novel by Carlos Ruiz Zafon titled 'Shadow of the Wind'. I finished it just last night and borrowed another one of his books, with a pretentious aim to finish reading all of his other books by the end of this year. I was almost obsessed with his books.

Ruiz made me realize that words do have an impact in the lives of others. It can be in a form of a magazine, a newspaper, a letter or even a book. Writers in the earlier days have little recognition and the impact of words in those times were, well, rather indifferent.

Now, we have the luxury of various writing platforms and the gift of education to fortify the impact of our words. We take for granted this universal language. We aren't doing enough to further enlighten ourselves in language per say. Not even myself. Well, I give myself a peace of mind by reading, to say the very least, and I'm intending to pick up another language, if I can.

I have the littlest foundation on French and I understand that there is not a remarkable difference between French and Spanish. (like Mandarin to English) There are similarities with the English language too! Hopefully, I am able to grasp the basics of Spain's beautiful language and travel without any worry about language barriers. :)

Food for thought: what other languages would you like to pick up? :)

-Leila

Good night.

I have no clue what's wrong with myself. Maybe I'm a little dramatic, maybe I'm a little unreasonable, or maybe I'm just sensitive. Or maybe it's my mood swings.

Funny how one can mess things up with the intention of making things right. When you're on a close lookout for the mines and instead of defusing it, you stepped on another mine hidden beside it. Then you blow everything up and hurt everyone in the process, including yourself. Then you feel terrible and guilty for stepping on that stupid mine despite knowing it was an accident. But the people you hurt are blaming you. After all, you were the one who stepped on that bomb. Can't possibly blame anyone else right?

Who would want to hurt the person they love the most? All you wanna do is try your hardest to make sure everything is in tip-top condition for him/her.

Ever had the feeling where you wanted to try to be the best for someone you love?

That feeling where you feel like he/she deserves perfection, and you want to be perfect for him/her.

And then that feeling when you make a mistake and he/she looks at you with disappointment.

Yeah.. Well it sucks..

I'm exhausted. From crying.

It's been two days in a row. Not my record, but my record for the past few months.

Wow I've really improved huh. Not.

Good night people. I hope your night was far more beautiful than mine.

One fine year

Remember this day?
This was taken days before that fateful day when you asked me to be yours.

Now, today, I'm proud to say that we've come this far. It has been a very fulfilling ride with you over the past year (or so) and I need to spend the rest of my entire life with you.

Thank you, Hadi, for making my world beautiful. No one else comes close to making me feel the way you do.

********

When years are passing by like days,
and in my hand your hand is placed,
a knowing smile crosses your face.
Your simple touch can still make my heart race.

When I can see my soul in your eyes,
and you see your soul in mine we realize,
that a love so deep can harbor no lies,
where our only tears shed were happy tears we've cried.

I love you as much now as I ever did before,
if possible, I may even love you more,
all day, everyday.

I don't know what it is that you saw in me,
what I saw in you was the utmost happiness that can ever be,
even more so on the day when you and I became "We",
I can still smile and say with love and truth Baby,
I love you!
Happy Anniversary my sweetest love!

-Hadi


*************

My love,

So much has happened during this period of time,
It all began with a simple "You" and "I",
The gradual thought of love bubbling in mind
In time, we realized we needed to have our lives intertwined.

The moments we shared
The things we never cared
The time we spared
& the lives we compared

It brought us here to where we are
To a road I never thought I'd tread
Hand in hand, we've come this far
And we'll never, ever be turning back.

A promise made, is a promise I will keep
And for now, a promise is my gift to you
I will treasure and cherish you for all eternity
And shower you with love so pure and true.

Happy Anniversary Hadi.

Love,
Leila

06-10

It started here, last year.

And now, a new beginning for us both.

Much love,

Leila

baby love

I remember like it was yesterday
First kiss and I knew you changed the game
You had me exactly where you wanted and I'm on it


And I ain't ever gonna let you get away
Holding hands never made me feel this way
So special, boy it's your, your smile


We so in love
And I just can't get enough of your love
We so in love, and I want you to know


You are my baby love
You make the sun come up
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of


You make the sun come up on a cloudy day
You're my number one, you're my special thing


You're my everything, Hadi <3

So Amazing

Love has truly been good to me
Not even one sad day
Or minute have I had since you've come my way
I hope you know I'd gladly go
Anywhere you take me

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
Ooh~ I'd go

Got to tell you how you thrill me
I'm happy as I can be
You've come and changed my whole world
Bye-bye sadness, hello mellow
What a wonderful day

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above
Ooh~ I'd go

And it's so amazing, amazing
I could stay forever, forever
Here in love and no leave ya never
Cause we've got amazing love

Truly it's amazing, amazing
Love brought us together, together
I will leave you never, never
Cuz we've got amazing love

Ooh, so amazing and I've been wondering
For a love like you

It's so amazing to be loved
I'd follow you to the moon in the sky above


*****

Wherever you go, love. I'd go with you <3

cos I'm just a girl

sonnet.

T'was never a chore to speak my heart out to you everyday,
For my love for you grows as days pass by,
And this will never cease until the day I die.
You tell me, too, in a thousand different ways,
How you regard my being as graceful as a dove's flight
And yearn for the moment to vow your life eternally
To this one woman who's always loving you endlessly
And forever from that day on you and I shall unite.

Matt's My Munchkin.

You're my munchkin, monyu.
<3

europe.

Can't wait for a beautiful honeymoon with you ♥

dream guy.

You've always asked me why you're perfect for me.

Dated: 28 Feb 2010
"I want a boy who can understand me and satisfy me and make me happy everyday. One who'd surprise me with sweet things that he can think of. One who'd take me wherever I want. One who'd support me in whatever I do. One who'd let me be free whenever I want. One who'd know everything about me and still accept me for who I am, and not what I am. One who's hot and when we walk, people would turn heads to see this hot young couple who are made for each other. One who'd dare call me his own in front of whoever he meets. One who'd make me laugh when I'm down. One whom I can see a future with. One who'd look at me in the eye and tell me I'm beautiful when I'm at my most unglam moment. One who'd sing nicely to me and make me go weak. One who'd be there for me whenever I want him to be.

The ONE for me.

Now that'd be nice.

Is that too much?
I think so too. sigh.
Dream guy, come my way quick."

*****

Gosh. I didn't even realize I prayed for you back then. I came across the above post as I was looking through stuff that I wrote before.

God has answered my prayers.

You're everything that I wanted. You're my dream guy.

Forever & always, Hadi.

My Present & Future

You'd do anything for me. You'd make me the happiest girl in the world.
That I am :)

Thank you. I'm really grateful to have you as my boyfriend.

You know, when I told you how happy and touched I was when you said you'd do anything for me, I cried, thinking how lucky I am to be yours. Then I cried again, cause I imagined for a split second what life would be like without you. I couldn't continue imagining. I wouldn't want to know how it'll be like, cause I'd never want my life to be without you.

A scene from "Wedding Crashers" made me think; the widow was crying so bad cause she lost that one person she truly loved. Then Owen Wilson said that he's not ready to lose Rachel McAdams yet. He was a wreck without her and he couldn't stop thinking about her. I know it's just a movie, but honestly, movies do make sense too. Even when it comes to romance.

I'm not ready to lose you. You are my present and future and I can't imagine of a world without you. I am a wreck without you and I'm sure you've seen that before.
With my all, I love you Nur Muhammad Hadi. There's no other I could ever ask for.
You're a dream come true.

Restless

Soothe me with your voice & run your fingers through my hair.
Look me in the eye and kiss me softly, with tender loving care.

Art & Craft

doodles&drawings.

Beds

I want to bask in the sun rays when I wake up beside you.

New year

2011; a great start to the new year. &it will be better as we go along. Things are planned out nicely, and I'm looking forward to October with you, my dear Hadi :)

on a side note, I'm gonna miss Mario. I love that thing. Won't get off from my lap, and for a kitten, he sleeps like a king. Haha!